the cruelest thing

“you're not good for me. i know. i stay. i gave you everything. you took my attention and kept your heart somewhere i couldn't reach. i've been to the brink more times than i can say and still come back to the same door. where was my fault in loving you with all of it? i can't answer that. so i just stay holding something sharp pretending it doesn't hurt. that's the thing about this. you're breaking me and i still don't want you to be broken.”