standing in the rain while the sun is out

“i don’t even know why we started maybe it was the way your eyes held softness my lonely heart had been searching for or maybe it was simply timing two broken souls meeting at the wrong moment but still choosing to stay all i know is i’m glad we began because before you love felt like something that only happened in poems not to people like me and then you came in smiling like sunlight talking like home and suddenly the world didn’t feel so heavy anymore but loving you is confusing sometimes because the same hands that calm my storms also create them the things you do the silence the distance the cold replies they hurt more than i’ll ever admit out loud your silence breaks me into pieces so small even i can’t recognize myself in them i sit there wondering if i said too much if i cared too hard if maybe i’m just another temporary person in your permanent life and yet all it takes is one smile from you one soft look one genuine laugh one moment where you choose me again and somehow every broken part inside me starts finding its way back home that’s what scares me the most how someone can destroy me quietly while healing me at the same time because loving you feels like standing in the rain while the sun is still out beautiful but confusing painful but impossible to walk away from”