if i were you
“i wouldn’t forgive me either.
not after the way i vanished
in the middle of a sentence
you were brave enough to stay for.
you saw storms,
i gave silence.
you asked for a future,
i handed you fragments of the past
i never healed from.
the truth?
i held you like a secret
because i was afraid of being known.
and now i miss the way
you used to love me
before i made it a burden.
you deserved hands
that didn’t flinch
every time you got close.
you deserved poems
that weren’t written in apology.
this isn’t a love letter.
this is a confession.
that it was me.
the ruin. the reason.
the one who taught you
that even the softest hearts
can shatter in silence.
so if i were you—
i wouldn’t come back either.”