Always in My Heart

“Every day feels like a marathon Without you by my side. I just miss the days When we were happy together. I wish that lasted forever and ever, But sadly, I gotta let you go, Which I didn’t want to. I had to make it seem Like I was the one leaving. I really didn’t want it to end. You were the person who understood me, With every word you say Repeating in my mind. I just miss the way we used to say bye, The way we kissed, And your reply when I said, “I love you.” But sadly, I can’t get anything now. I know we still talk, But I wanna say those words to you— Yet it feels wrong. I don’t know if I will ever be able to forget you. Our memories are glued to my soul forever. If I had the words to explain you, I would have written a book for you, And still, that wouldn’t be enough. December 25th, 9:53 pm— The time we got separated. I wouldn’t deny that I was happy when we broke up, But there was a part of me that needed you, That craved your attention, And I knew I couldn’t get that back. I miss you with every heartbeat. When I say I miss you, I don’t mean I want you back; I just mean I miss our days together. It’s true that I just hate When you talk about other guys when we talk. It just hurts. To me, you are still mine. I don’t know if you consider me to be yours, But if you said we should get back, I would happily agree— Whether I’m in a relationship or not. I will run to you whenever you need me. Just call me. I am all yours. But now all the day bleeds into nightfall, And you are not here to get me through it all. I let my guard down, And then you pulled the rug. I guess I was kinda getting used to being someone you loved. Well, I don’t know why I am writing this, But I find happiness when I write something. The nickname you gave me Is still my favorite name ever. I want to hear it, but I can’t, Because I only like it when you say that. I want you, and I can’t disagree with that. If God said to me that I would have to die To make you happy forever, I would happily die with a smile on my face. My last wish would be to see you and hear your voice. Even if you carried Medusa’s curse, I would still want to stare into your eyes, So my stone body could gaze at perfect for eternity. Well, it would still not be enough— Even if I wrote a whole book explaining my love for you. I just miss the way you held me When I was overthinking everything, And the way our vibes aligned. Your absence is a constant ache, A reminder of the void that resides within. I spend my days lost in memories of us— Your laughter, your warmth. I find comfort in scrolling through pictures of you, Each one a testament to the love we shared. It’s like I’m trapped in a loop, Reliving our moments together, Hoping to recapture the magic we once had. But as the days pass, the ache only intensifies, And I can’t help but wonder if you feel it too. Do you spend your nights scrolling through old messages, Replaying our conversations like a broken record? Or do you simply carry on, Unaffected by the void you left behind? You are not just someone special; You are the love of my life, The one I can’t bear to be without. Your absence is like a puzzle with missing pieces, Leaving me incomplete and yearning for your presence. I hold onto the hope that one day, You’ll realize how much you mean to me, How much I long to have you back in my arms. Until then, know that you are deeply missed, Cherished, and loved beyond measure. My love for you knows no bounds, Transcending time and space. It’s like an eternal flame burning bright within me, Refusing to be extinguished by the distance between us. Even as I navigate through life’s twists and turns, You remain a constant beacon of hope, Guiding me through the darkest of days. I find myself reminiscing about our days together— The laughter, the tears, the countless memories we created. Each memory is like a treasure, Carefully tucked away in the corners of my heart, Waiting to be revisited in moments of solitude. And though we may be apart, Know that you are never far from my thoughts, Never far from my heart. You are not just someone I miss; You are my rock, my confidant, my everything. I find myself hoping and praying for your return, For the chance to rebuild what we once had. Until then, know that I am here, Waiting with open arms and an open heart, Ready to welcome you back into my life With all the love and warmth it holds. You are my forever, and nothing can change that. You just hold a special place in my heart. I wish I could give you up like you gave me up so easily, But I find myself constantly fighting to keep your memory. Tonight, I lay all my thoughts in words, Hoping I will be able to send you this, But I’m not sure if I can”